for the most part i’m a very optimistic person….i am the girl that thinks that the strength of your own mind can move mountains…i believe in the power of positive thinking, i believe…period…
but i’ve started a new journey where my mental strength won’t always cut it…i need muscles, i need the “physical”…
it’s dawned on me a few times in the past few weeks, during the start to my new journey, that i’ll need “brute strength” to get me through most of my workouts…first, when i couldn’t get up & down the stairs after doing 120 lounges with a 45 pound bar on my chest…second when i could barely carry on a conversation with my husband because all of the neurons in my brain are fired up & focused on my aching body…and lastly when i met a brilliant woman, named Gina, and intuitive…a reader…who told me (among other things) that she sees me changing, physically, struggling, taking a “vacation” or a “journey”…alone…that will take all of my body & mind…i met with her Saturday night at a friends house…i ended up in tears…not to my surprise…i’ve taken this journey before, a few years ago i started, but i didn’t stick with it…for too many reasons to list here…
the journey i’m taking is CROSSFIT…you can see pieces of it here
i’ve spent my life getting by on 20% strength & 80% mental toughness…this aint’ going to cut it…..and look, i’m fit…i run, i lift…i can do stuff, i ran that stinkin’ half marathon…which was, by the way, 75% mental toughness, i did the work physically….i was sadly unprepared for what that run would do for me mentally….that’s another story for another time…
so if i seem off…if i’m laying down or moaning when you come in…just pat me on the back & tell me to stick with it…i will be sore, every single day, i will be “hangry” (the sad state where you’re so hungry that you’re angry)..i will be cranky…i will surround myself with people that “get it”, that know what i’m made of…that will watch me from the sidelines, cheer me on, not tell me i’m crazy or obsessed (i prefer to call it dedicated)…
this is THE year that i stop saying this is THE year…it’s MY year….i will dead lift, push up, row, run, snatch, hang clean, climb the rope, squat, eat the food, swing the kettle bell, show up, i will do the work…and every once in a while i will cry….
stand back…watch me…
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I’m watching…with mouth all agape in awe. You got this.
omg! you are like supah-woman! you are inspiring to me. i just wish i had half of your drive and motivation.
Remember that failure isn’t part of your identity; it’s simply part of your journey. If you have failed at something recently, jot down some of the lessons you learned from it and use them to persevere toward your goals. In the dust of defeat as well as the laurels of victory there is a glory to be found if one has done his best!!! GET OVER IT, GET UP, AND TRY AGAIN………………………………………………….MUCH LOVE, DAD.