you know…when you want something SOO badly….

for someone else…

that feeling, i get it when i adore someone so much, value them, appreciate them, look up to them…and they want something…but for some reason i feel like i want it for them MORE…

what to do??? i encourage…try to inspire…relate, etc, etc…but in the end THEY really have to be the ones that leap…you know?

like my son…i want him to want to keep swimming, and so far so good. he loves it, thrives at it, gets excited to compete…and is pretty good at it, for his size & age…but sometimes i think i want it MORE…

lane 3, white cap…200 free @ Milford High School 1.19.13

i have a friend that wants to open a gym. he SHOULD open a gym, it’s in his blood, soul, heart…i don’t think anything else he does in his whole life will fulfill him like his own gym would…but he hesitates, for a lot of reasons i’m sure…money, time, effort…FEAR

see…i want it so bad, because it’s not my FEAR (i’ve had my own, i still do being a small business owner in a tough economy)…i get it, honestly i do. i’m pretty sure there are people in my own life that have wanted things for me along the way, wanted them so badly…

but at some point that person has to let it go, the FEAR…has to want it more than you, their friend, inspiration. in the end it comes down to just yourself, and let’s face it, it’s tough to just BE with yourself, convince yourself, let go of your own FEAR…and just DO…

i’ll keep wanting for the people i love & adore….and at some point they’ll leap…

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Kathryn January 22, 2013 at 3:02 pm

gave me chills… so true! i will get there someday… :) xo

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jackie January 23, 2013 at 8:31 am

in a million ways…you’ve already arrived :)

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Emily January 23, 2013 at 7:59 am

These last few years, it feels like I wanted things more than I thought even possible and I was spinning my wheels. 2013 is my blackbird year (AKA time to take my fate into my own hands and make some things happen). Thanks for the inspiration.

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jackie January 23, 2013 at 8:30 am

i promise…this is the year i STOP saying “this is the year”……i’m wicked proud of you, run on girl….go, conquer….

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dad January 23, 2013 at 9:28 am

You open hearts for so many people, I am so proud of you, when you were young I wanted so much for you, I let go and look how well you have done. Yes there were fears along the way, you have made those disappear for me. Much love Dad.

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